I sorted out my thought process.

So what if I'm rejected?

So what if she is holding someone's else hands?

To think I allowed it to affect my studies and my mood.

From now on, I won't allow it to manipulate me.

Gary is going to move on and be a happy man =).

Astarmist

I'm starting to feel the intensity of a J2 student's life, as you can see in my msn personal message, 'being assulted from all sides by the innumerous stack of homework.'

Just came back from the the nearest mac from my house. Went there to study cause of the temptations at home, especially this computer that I'm currently using to post right now.

What a surprise, I saw 2 of my OGL friends there, haha. Both of them also mugging, just like how typical JC students should behave. I finally managed to complete my math homework which piled up for 1 week due to orientation camp! =) Incredibly I took more than 2 hours for just mere 14 questions. Ah I really need to get wired back to the mugging state. The aftermath of orientation...

Now left Chemistry, Physics and General Paper. Oh, and I'm in charge of organising the Blood Donation Drive in school for CSL. Must do so many proposal, I did at least 5 drafts of it already. And the teacher in charge said that it is the easiest project that CSL has with the least commitment. So I should be thankful eh? Lol...

Don't feel like going to school, but tomorrow got math lecture. Must go!!! Lol, math is the only subject that is motivating me to go to school.

Came across an article when doing GP: 'Growing fat? Becoming more stressed? Blame the economy.'

Lol it is saying that the recession is a direct link for the sharp increase in obese patients and people with psychological problems. Just weighed myself today and found out I put on 2 kg! The last time I weighed myself was in January before Chinese New Year. Wah, 2 kg in one month...I don't blame the economy, I blame the festive season! I'm gonna fast for one week, starting from tomorrow. Told my maid already, no more good food to tempt me, hahaha.

Lastly, I think I'm a total failure in relationships, specifically BGR. I can get A1 for math but probably get F9 for BGR. Thank God MOE doesn't have BGR as a subject, if not I won't even make it pass primary school. I don't want to think about it anymore le. And Wayne I admit you're smart. Put your talent to good use.

Astarmist

Orientation Camp 09

3 days 2 nights were too short, how I wished it could have been longer.

Thanks OG9 for being such great campers =). It is my good fortune to be your leader and have the opportunity to take care of you guys. Haha, last day of camp already shared our feelings for one another. Thanks for appreciating me and Bai Fong so much, I almost teared.

This is going to be the last time being a camp facilitator for JJC. A bittersweet victory. Now I wish that JC education have 4 years. 2 years is really too short to forge strong friendships...

But I'll treasure every moment I have with you guys.

Orientation Camp Day 1

Family 1: Unicorn

The moon during Day 1 supper

Kong Ming lantern

E-web: The invisible bonds that tie us together

Dear campers, you all are worth the sacrifice we've put in during the preparation of the camp and during the camp. Staying back in school during weekdays till 9pm and coming back during saturdays to do all the preparation. Sleeping only 3-4 hours and shouting our voice out during cheers. They were all worthwhile.

Thanks for the sweets during 14 feb, 1st time people gave me sweets on 14 feb, lol. ^^

Recuperating at the moment, I don't think I feel like going school tomorrow.

Tomorrow is crazy man. Go school 7am for OGL meeting, then all the way till 9pm cause need to make up for all the lessons we missed during orientation camp. Oh man, I wanna faint le...

Tuesday, wednesday and thursday also got make up lectures and tutorials...

Wednesday econs and physics test, thursday math test, friday GP test.

Can I just fail all my test except math?? AH..........I wanna go to the beach and scream out loud.

God please give me wisdom and strength.

Astarmist

We were both young when I first saw you
I close my eyes and the flashback starts
I'm standing there on a balcony in summer air
See the lights, see the party, the ball gowns
See you make your way through the crowd
And say hello, little did I know

That you were Romeo
You were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you please don't go

And I said
Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story, baby, just say yes

So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes, escape this town for a little while
Oh, oh, oh'

Cause you were Romeo,
I was a scarlet letter
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
But you were everything to me
I was begging you please don't go

And I said
Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story, baby, just say yes

Romeo, save me, they're trying to tell me how to feel
This love is difficult, but it's real
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story, baby, just say yes

I got tired of waiting, wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you was fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town

And I said
Romeo save me, I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you but you never come
Is this in my head, I don't know what to think
He knelt to the ground and he pulled out a ring
And said

Marry me, Juliet, you'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad, you'll pick out a white dress
It's a love story, baby, just say yes

Oh, oh, oh, oh

We were both young when I first saw you

After thinking it through for 3 weeks, I've decided to confess to her this saturady, 14 february, on Valetine's day. I have no experience whatsoever, I don't know what to say, or even if I know what to say, I would probably get tongue-tied.

Usually I'm optimistic, but I expecting a rejection and the probability of getting rejected is 98.5%. The other 1% is 'Are you kidding me? Today is Valetine's day not April fool.' And 0.5% is being accepted, which I don't know how to react to it should it occur. Math isn't going to help me here...

And no Wayne, I haven't bought the chocolates. No time to go Vivo to buy, I think I'll just get a Merci box chocolate, $8.50 quite expensive got sincerity, lol. And I'll be like bringing it with me to camp for 3 days, hope it doesn't melt or get ravaged by ants.

I just hope that...

Haix...

If only I was....

Astarmist

Wayne this post is dedicated to you, and I specially stayed up till now for you, arent't you touched? Lol =D

**HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!**

Purposely give you red =p.

Shopping with you at orchard today was super fun, you changed my mindset, concept, percept, wadever-cept about shopping, which I totally loathed in the past. Hope you like your present =).

Next time when my parents fly overseas (hehe...rich moment), let's go shop together again, haha.

Ok need go sleep le, tomorrow wake up 6am.

Nites =)

Astarmist

Welcome to JJ, this way please!!

TODAY SIMPLY ROCKS!!! =D

Stayed overnight at my family mate's house (I'm in family 1 ^^) yesterday cause we need to reach school at 6.30am and she lives 1 block away from school (Yea much nearer than me). 16 ppl squeeze in one house, lol. Girls sleep inside the bedroom while guys slept on the floor in the living room. I didn't want to sleep on the floor cause my mom told me it is bad for health. So I try to act funny and slept on the 3 chairs horizontally, lol. It was super hard can!!!

Couldn't get to sleep so we all talked crap till 3am. Then we all keep laughing for no reason (Actually they kept laughing and woke me up, then I also started to laugh thanks to Garrick, the best joker in my OG, lol). Then my family head drooled on the floor~!!! We laughed so loud till the girls inside the room heard us then they came out to see him. Then we all kept laughing, lol!!! In the end, after all the commotion was over, I shifted the chairs to one side and tried sleeping on the floor. IT WAS SO MUCH EASIER TO SLEEP...but it was already 4am then slept till 6am.

Conclusion: Don't listen to what your parents say all the time, must use your own intelligence too, lol. Example, if they ask you to commit sucide, would you go commit sucide? Of course not.

Then 6.30am we reported to school and my OG went to the concourse to welcome the J1. Quite natural to me, cause I'm an usher, lol. Got a bit of flashback to the time when I was a J1 and the OGLs also welcomed us to school. After that, went for assembly with the J1s. Lol, I think only the OGLs were singing the national anthem and school song. I know how the J1s felt cause that time I also very pai-seh, don't want to sing. New environment, new school, new people, can understand, haha.

Prayers really work. I kept praying that my campers will not be those 'dao' people and don't want to participate in anything, like how I was last time. Seeing how enthu my campers are, with some not that enthu but slowly changing; I believe in due time they will =). Still can't remember all their names, got 27 names to remember, ahhhh. Good training for my memory, lol. But thank God can remember at least 80%. Got campers from lemon and strawberry's school in my OG. Lol Wayne I think strawberry's school got a lot of cute girls, not only her alone, hahaha. Got of a lot of my juniors too, but only 1 in my OG. The vice president and exco-members of my secondary school's student councilors also came, but they all scattered around other OGs too.

Then Garrick, who is not only the best joker but the most pervertic guy in my family, was super high cause he said the batch of J1s finally got chio bu. Lol??? I think every batch also got la...Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder anyway, or so it applies to me.

I think the most chaotic part today was the mass dance. There was an influx of boys, then not enough girls. First time so many boys, owned...Now I know how my OGL felt when he tried to pair me up with a girl, lol. Still, no one can break my record of skipping mass dance 11 times. Come to think of it, it was such a waste, all the fun that I missed. I guess that was the same motivation that my OGL had-we want the campers to have fun the best way they can have.

I need to get more sleep cause yesterday only slept 2 hours, then during all the talks dozed off, not a very good sight for the campers. In fact, got some other OGLs also dozed off, cause we listened before then super sian.

So I'm gonna sleep at 12am and wake up at 5.30am tomorrow. Tomorrow is going to be a brand new day of fun, laughter, peace and joy! =D

Astarmist