I just had an amazing experience today. Often we hear cases of people getting healed of cancer by various pastors but not many of us actually know those people in person and today, I actually had the privilege to talk to one such person who had stage 4 cancer when he was 12 years old and got healed miraculously by God. I believe God used him as a vessel to speak to me because whatever that he shared with me is exactly what I needed to hear. I met that guy in Dialect service today, as I was asked to help out to serve because they had no keyboardists, and I never knew this act of service will a blessing to me in disguise.
After praise and worship, together the rest of the singers and band, I went to the artiste room to rest. I was intending to just take a short nap on the sofa but as I was about to rest, the guy sitting beside me turned to me and started to tell me how he was worried for his wife because her nose kept bleeding a few days ago and she was rushed to the hospital. The doctors had to insert this 'I forgot what it is called but it would help absorb the blood' thing in her nose first. They said this procedure will be extremely painful and the doctor were actually reluctant to do it but they had no choice. When they inserted the thing, the guy said his wife begin screaming so loudly that he literally felt his bones shiver. My whole body went shivers as well when he said that to me. I told him it must be extremely heart-wrecking to see your loved one suffer like that, and told him my uncle died from lung cancer few years ago and he said the pain was like '2000 needles poking him every single second'! And I know how it feels to see a loved one suffer like that, because I literally cried when I saw my uncle lying on the bed, helpless against that cancer. My family and I prayed for him to be healed, and his family being Christians as well, prayed for him but in the end, God brought him back to heaven as his time on Earth was up.
Then, he started to tell me he once had stage 4 cancer when he was 12 years old. At that time, their family were not Christians yet and his parents were at their wits-end. By the grace of God, their neighbors were Christians and they invited his family to church and healing crusades to get prayed for. Unfortunately, he didn't get healed and his condition started to deteriorated till he had to be hospitalized because his organs were failing and when he tried putting food in his mouth, it came out of his nose instead. He told me his body rejected the food and he had to be fed through tube. Part of his skins became black in color and the pain was immense. The chemotherapy wasn't working and he began to grow weaker and weaker. The doctor said he only had a few months left to live, and he will be living those month in the hospital. At that time, he told me he suddenly hear God speaking to him, that "God has given him a purpose to fulfill and He will save him." At that moment, he knew that he will recover from his cancer, that sheer faith because God personally spoke to him. It wasn't an overnight thing but a very gradual recovery. He could see his skin turning from black color till lighter shade of black and then slowly back to normal color. The number of cancer cells began to decrease over the months and after a few months, he had 0 cancer cells in his body! He told me that through that humbling experience, from that day onward, he knew his life is no longer his own, but God's. I told him that it was totally mind-blowing to me, and he said yeah, and to be the one to be able to have a second chance in life again, he is totally indebted to God.
I think I have seemingly lost track of my life for a moment, and I have been so negative these past few months. After reading my previous post, I realized that instead of people taking me for granted, I have been taking God's goodness for granted. In the first place, I don't even deserve to be living. Without God, I won't even be alive. Still remembered I almost died in an accident in Australia and God saved me. I should live my life being indebted to God, because it is no longer my life, it is His. Just when I lost vision of my future, and I did say previously that I've nothing to look forward to in life, but now God reminded me through that man that He too has given me a purpose to fulfill. You always thought that you have attained it all once you achieved your dream but God has always something greater for you, something beyond your capability. True that I have achieved my dream already and I'm sort of able to die in peace, but I'm suddenly awaken to the fact that there is something much more that I can do while I am alive.
It's funny how people often say 'You only live once, or in short - YOLO'. But in fact, it should be 'You only die once, you get to live everyday.' And while I get to live everyday, there is so much things that I can do that dead people can't.
Gratefulness. Gratitude. Thankfulness. It's been a lot time since I've been grateful for what I have, sorry God. Once again I want to thank You for everything that You have given me. You are truly more than anything, and You're everything to me.
It is so easy to take the things we have for granted when the circumstances doesn't go in our favor, and to blame everyone else, including God, for what it happening. That is why we need to constantly remind ourselves to be grateful. Now I know what kind of a soul mate I want in life, someone who will constantly remind of me of God's goodness. So that when I go through my down periods in the future, I will have someone else to remind me. It's like a backup generator when the main power circuit has a blackout.
Forever, I am indebted to You.
