Blogging is still the safest place for me to vent my frustrations and share my deep thoughts. I totally forgot that my father was my Facebook friend and he gave me a 20 mins counselling on the recent status I posted, lol!! Was like telling him blah blah blah happen in camp, I'm a normal human being and being a christian, I also occasionally feel down sometimes. He is more of those legalistic kind of christian, told me even if hell happened, must accept it, know that God is in charge of all this. Well, I know all God is, but sometimes being an imperfect being, bad things happen. =/ But I'm know that feeling angry/sad/moody isn't that bad, after all God created emotions for us to enjoy. I rather let it all out now than to suppress it and erupt like a volcano later. Hmm, speaking of which, I doubt anyone has seen me erupt yet, other than my younger brother whahahahaha!
Had enough of releasing my stress and frustrations in Facebook already, and additional dosage of laughter by watching The Ghosts Must be Crazy yesterday at JP. Reached home at 2am and for some reason couldn't sleep, manage to sleep only at 3am and woke up at 9am to go for PM at zac's house. Don't feel tired at all, guess my body is getting used to being fatigue. Which is a good thing. Changed my guitar strings to Elixir today and it's super awesome. I'm gonna buy Elixir from now on, lol.
It's like only 2 weeks into the New Year and I'm starting to love 2011. I'm like looking forward to everything that is going to happen in this year. Even in the army, only 2 more major events and it will be pretty much over. 4NTM from May to August and Ex Wallaby again from 25 sept to 17 Oct. The new sergeants, especially one sergeant in my platoon, is extremely nice to us. It's like a God-sent. He is super friendly, good-looking, welfare, and even help us block all the attacks from CSM and even when he gets scolded, he doesn't blame us. He also helps us to do the sai kang together and a lot more. My platoon sergeant also very caring to us and he don't give us extra job to do, only necessary things to do. But really feel sad for them to come to this company and suffer. 1st time in company history, the sergeants get knocked down by CSM. We were like shocked la. Shouted and scolded them and threaten to give them defaulters' parade. Sometimes he is just too rigid, but we can't do a thing. Oh well...
Army gave me a lot of insights into life. Sometimes I wonder if I didn't go through all this and directly enter the workforce, what will happen to me? I think within 1 month, I would have killed myself, lol. Still, even after 1 year, I haven't figure out how to stop people from talking to me when I don't want to talk to them. It's like I ignore them, never give any eye contact and when they call my name I only response by nodding my head cause if I don't (which I tried a few times), they will say 'Kao Pei, Dao me ah?' Still without fail they keep pestering me. Argh...
Sometimes knowing more people isn't really good. Sometimes I rather be alone than to be with the wrong company of people. Guess army is tough for me not because of the training, but because I have to see the people that I don't want to see for 5 days straight. Lol it's like having a thorn in your flesh but unable to remove it. Nevermind, I will live with it, suck thumb~ =X
Next thing that I'm looking forward to: Chinese New Year. Seriously need the ang baos. I'm like left with only $114.70 to spend for 3 weeks and I don't know how I manage to spend more than $200 in the past 2 weeks. Ok I think I got a rough item, taxi. Been taking cab everywhere I go, from home to camp, camp to home, to church, to pm, and later I MUST NOT take taxi to camp. Gonna leave my house early and take the bus!! Seriously someone ban me from taking cab man, lol! The week I was injured, I spent more than $150 purely on cab, getting from places to places.
Time to be money-conscious again.
Days to ORD: 322
